A BATTLE FOR LIFE. The Path of Rachel. Return into Love!

A battle for life


I see how the man of God put meat, bread and wine on a large stone. And fire came out of the stone and consumed everything that the man of God had laid down.

Some, seeing this, also repeated after the man of God, but the fire didn’t accept it, but, on the contrary, burned those who did it.

Some were very surprised by it, as they didn’t expect this. Others feared much. 

Techniques do not work: we can’t take a method, repeat it, and it will “work”. You can’t be “like” Jesus and “be” Jesus. You can’t look like Paul and become Paul. You can’t just talk and smile and be that person. This cannot be. There must be essence and nature, the very being.

Therefore, you need to look through the window, and not at the window, as Evan Roberts said.


A nasty black kite, which fed on all kinds of impurity, saw a soaring dove and began to chase after it, wanting to grab it or drive it into a cage.

But the dove flew into the cleft of the rock, where the kite could not get it.

The kite flew and even uttered the cry of a dove so that the dove flew out. But the dove understood that it was not the voice of a dove. Knowing that this was her enemy, she stayed for some time in the cleft, and then again flew out to fly. Although she was simple, she had wisdom with her.

This is for our reflection.

I think one of the things we need is to receive a new beginning. As one wise man said about one man, “he started every day from the beginning.”

Not just starting every day, but life anew. Start your life over again every day.

I want to share from the book of Genesis about two women who fought for children. This is an interesting prototype for modern churches, which also “fight” for children.

They were Rachel and Leah. And not only they themselves suffered, but also their maids. They even involved their maids in their competition.

“Now when Rachel saw that she bore Jacob no children, Rachel envied her sister, and said to Jacob: “Give me children, or else I die!” And Jacob’s anger was aroused against Rachel and said “Am I in the place of God, who has withheld you from the fruit of the womb?” (Genesis 30:1-2)

Today there is competition in the Body of Christ. We so much want to be the “coolest” church. We want to be spectacular. That we have the most anointed worship, that we have a prestigious house of prayer.

I am not a supporter of people who hinder childbirth. If you are able to conceive and give birth to children, why don’t you give birth? If you’re old, it’s understandable. But some brothers and sisters terminate the pregnancy, they contrive things, as they only want one child. This is very bad. Do not do that. God can take your life if you take life. Do not play these games, it is very dangerous. Especially when a pastor does it.

Many people dream of having a child, and some do not – they do not make an abortion, but they do not give seed, they do not give life, you contrive, twist in and out, so as not to give birth to another one. Who are you to block the will of God?

In the last seasons of my life fury rises within me. I didn’t understand what it was. And now I know that God is getting bigger. God speaks in me. And He gets furious. This causes my rage. How dare you not give life to the will of God?!

Many people today, such as infertile mothers, go to great lengths to get pregnant. Women in the world are ready just to have a child, even without being married.

And the families of the ministers don’t run the seed just to have no more children. How can it be? How can you lose faith like that? How could one lose the fear of God in order to engage in these abominations, and then pray as if nothing had happened?! How can it be?!

You say: you need to be more humane? What are you talking about? Are you the one to give life? Do you breathe life into the seed? Is this what you do? Who are you to regulate these things?! Fear! And all who hear this word – fear! Because you don’t give life, and God can take life from you, you’ll lose yours. Stop. The Lord is warning you. His patience is not everlasting.

Everything can change in one moment: today you are this way, and tomorrow you are another way. Fear God, you who do these things. Stop, fear and give birth to children. Give birth, don’t conjure.

The Lord killed Onan because he emitted his seed on the ground. Hit more people. Brothers and sisters, live and sow life! Fill this land with righteous seed!

This is all from unbelief, from depravity, from defilement, from selfishness.

And it came  straight into the holy place! Do you think God will leave it this way? Do you think He stayed there? The dove flew away. Keep your purity so that Paul recognizes you, Abraham recognizes you as his own.

““Now when Rachel saw that she bore Jacob no children, Rachel envied her sister, and said to Jacob: “Give me children, or else I die!” ” (Genesis 30:1).

That’s how you should want children, women!

There was no problem in anyone. The Lord had His providence.

“ So she said, “Here is my maid Bilhah; go in to her, and she will bear a child on my knees, that I also may have children by her.” Then she gave him Bilhah her maid as wife, and Jacob went in to her. And Bilhah conceived and bore Jacob a son. Then Rachel said, “God has judged my case; and He has also heard my voice and given me a son.” Therefore she called his name Dan. And Rachel’s maid Bilhah conceived again and bore Jacob a second son. Then Rachel said, “With great wrestlings I have wrestled with my sister, and indeed I have prevailed.” And she called his name Naphtali (Genesis 30:3-8).

Who won here? Sister over sister? Sister’s victory over sister… What are we talking about? Who is the winner here? This is where we live and work. They boiled in this “water”, should’ve drained it immediately, but they began to believe in it. Bitterness right inside.

This is how local communities live: they “cook” in their insides. In your own little world. It seems to them that they are the most correct, the coolest in the world.

These are the diseases of the local church.

And so Leah stopped bearing.

“When Leah saw that she had stopped bearing, she took her maid Zelpa, and gave her to Jacob as wife, and he went in to her” (Genesis 30:9).

To think that Jacob got into these things. Incredible! And now she already gives him  a fourth wife. It’s like prostitution. It’s as if you were raped.

Wild things. When a woman pushes you into the arms of another. And then she tortures you.

“And Leah’s maid Zilpah bore Jacob a son. Then Leah said, “A troop comes!” So she called his name Gad.  And Leah’s maid Zilpah bore Jacob a second son. Then Leah said, “I am happy, for the daughters will call me blessed.” So she called his name Asher” (Genesis 30:10-13).

You need to see that you have stopped giving birth. This leads us to wrong actions. Why should those maids be needed?

When we need a result, it pushes us to the wrong things. These women were blown away, and Jacob too.

You need to see why you stopped giving birth. These women should have understood it. They should have not pushed Jacob to such actions, but start seeking and get an answer.

Why did they stop having children? The Word says it was they who stopped begetting, not Jacob. Instead of seeking, going to His face, they began to look for ways.

They had a “good” example – Sarah. They followed her example, but they’d better considered the example of Ishmael.

“Now Reuben went in the days of wheat harvest and found mandrakes in the field, and brought them to his mother Leah. Then Rachel said to Leah, “Please give me some of your son’s mandrakes.” But she said to her, “Is it a small matter that you have taken away my husband? Would you take away my son’s mandrakes also?”And Rachel said, “Therefore he will lie with you tonight for your son’s mandrakes.”When Jacob came out of the field in the evening, Leah went out to meet him and said, “You must come in to me, for I have surely hired you with my son’s mandrakes.” And he lay with her that night. And God listened to Leah, and she conceived and bore Jacob a fifth son. Leah said, “God has given me my wages, because I have given my maid to my husband.” So she called his name Issachar. Then Leah conceived again and bore Jacob a sixth son. And Leah said, “God has endowed me with a good endowment; now my husband will dwell with me, because I have borne him six sons.” So she called his name Zebulun.  Afterward she bore a daughter, and called her name Dinah. Then God remembered Rachel, and God listened to her and opened her womb. And she conceived and bore a son, and said, “God has taken away my reproach.” So she called his name Joseph, and said, “The Lord shall add to me another son.” And she called his name: Joseph, saying: “The Lord will give me another son” (Genesis 30:14-24).

Those were mandrakes – worth their weight in gold. So were these women… She gives away her most intimate and precious for the fruits. It’s the same as taking a soul.

Rachel had a scheme. Leah gave birth several times. But Rachel takes her husband and gives him to her. Before it was a fight – with whom he will lie. Now she is giving him herself. There is some witchcraft, some magic here. She gives up her husband. And so it began.

“When Jacob came out of the field in the evening, Leah went out to meet him and said, “You must come in to me, for I have surely hired you with my son’s mandrakes.” And he lay with her that night. And God listened to Leah, and she conceived and bore Jacob a fifth son.” (Genesis 30:16-17).

We need to understand the movement of lies and be able to discern. We need the ministry of discernment. We don’t need forecasters and fortune tellers. We need the truth of God, the Knowledge of God.

Leah says she got her wages. What’s this? Which one of you is Leah’s church? You’ve gathered people from other churches and are happy. 

You didn’t bear your own “subscribers”, but only contrived.

Therefore, we return to the original source – to give birth, teach, baptize and raise to the mount top of the Lord. Our way is to give birth from God, and not to pull things out through witchcraft.

Everything Leah said was incredible logic. She said that she had received wages for giving the maid herself.

“And Leah said: “ And Leah said, “God has endowed me with a good endowment; now my husband will dwell with me, because I have borne him six sons.” So she called his name Zebulun. Afterward she bore a daughter, and called her name Dinah” (Genesis 30:21).

Leah receives kids. And God heard Leah. She conceived and gave birth. I think that God heard not the words, but her spirit.

Rachel worked out her operation.

What was Rachel’s magic? Because Rachel was Jacob’s beloved wife. She had a completely different relationship with him. He loved her. And he labored for her at Laban’s.

“Then God remembered Rachel, and God listened to her and opened her womb. And she conceived and bore a son, and said, “God has taken away my reproach.” So she called his name Joseph, and said, “The Lord shall add to me another son.” (Genesis 30:22-24).

This happened after she took the mandrakes. Something happened. Many years passed, Leah and others had children. And she didn’t have any. And it happened exactly at the time – and God marks namely this in the Bible, that Reuben found the mandrakes, and then Rachel performed this operation, a mystical operation, when she turned everything back and received pregnancy, and the portal opened. She began to give birth.

Today, mandrakes symbolize love – as the very essence, as the very quintessence, the very spirit of love, and we read the Song of Songs – it’s all about it.

She went and changed her attitude, her nature of relationships, she changed herself, she stopped moving in competition, she gave her husband away, she made suffering, she died for this bed, she gave the most she craved, because they fought for every night. She gave it away – everything she had – because he was supposed to come to her – she gave it to her competitor and got something greater. The Lord had mercy on both.

We are talking today about the perfect path for those who cannot and have ceased to bear fruit. Your womb is not open, you don’t know what it means to enjoy the fruit – the Christian fruit.

There is a path of Rachel – through the mandrakes. The path of Rachel is to change the nature – not a struggle and fight with instinctive methods like tearing things for yourself, – but to give, disperse, give away the most precious, and gain what heaven will give you. Not to take – but to attain from heaven.

Noah found favor with God.

The path of Rachel is a perfect path. She gave all her purpose in life, all the tension, with every sunset she suffered if he didn’t come to her, but she gives him voluntarily to her enemy – her hated sister – and receives everything that one can only dream of in her case.

Change the nature of your relationship. Change everything for love. Change the duty of service. Change our spiritual fatigue, spiritual arrogance, spiritual zeal, spiritual ardor – give everything to the feet of Christ, and replace it all with love. Change it all. Leave everything.

This is the way of Rachel. For mandrakes. She took them for herself, looked at her husband’s back, went, locked the door, sat down alone, unfolded the cloth, where there were several mandrakes, and entered the portal, into love. She prepared it for herself, perhaps also for Jacob, and drank it, and realized she’d transited. She made a mystical transition into this portal.

When your altar sets on fire, it will burn by itself because there will be a transition. You will get what you choose. She conceived this new seed. She gave birth to a new man. There was no equal to Joseph.

She said – and we hear words full of meaning – “God has taken away my reproach.” She gave an interpretation of what happened. She gave an interpretation of what was. This is prophecy. It was a reproach, a shame that God took away.

Infertility is a disgrace. No Christian should be barren. The father cuts off the barren branch and throws it into the fire. “The Father is glorified by this, if you bear much fruit,” Christ said.

We should not take the path of Leah, when we fight for our own thing, make lots of mistakes, accumulate sins and habits, start to look more like administrators and accountants than anointed ones and prophets. This is Leah – unhappy, tired, lost presence in her life, emasculated pastors who know how to respond, but without life. Rachel stopped. She looked at herself, then at her sister, and said: “I don’t want that!”

The most precious thing is to be with Him. This is the way of Rachel. She left everything to be with Him. I call you to this path. This is the path of self-giving, this is the path of trust, this is the path of love, these are mandrakes – take them at the door of this portal.

The removal of shame is the removal of Leah’s clothes. Quit it all. Years will pass, and you will be ashamed of who you have become. If you don’t become more sensitive, loving, you are going the wrong way.

In the mirror – you disappear, and Christ appears.

I think John realized this – he spoke few words, he lay at the bosom of Jesus, all the Apostles had already left, but in a quiet voice he said: “Children, I give you a new commandment: love one another.” This is where it all begins.